Regret

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Years of lust
Has caused you a lifetime of regret

Regret,
of abandoning the one
who held your heart
and embraced your soul
through 7 dark years

Regret,
for not understanding
that this world is full of unwarranted test
and desperate women striving
to remove a Queen’s crown

Regret,
for being the sole reason
why she thought she could

Regret,
for thinking you were her only one
Such a little fool

Regret,
because she was suppose to be your #2
but you were her #2 all along

Regret,
for paving a deceptive path
Please add it your long list of skills

Regret,
for really thinking
that you could desert
the human seeds you planted
and start a flourishing garden
with a dried fig

Regret,
for trying to use your grandmother’s advice
“Just start a new family, baby”
against the family that made you, You.

With All The Negatives

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How did this happen?
Why. . .her?
You thought. . .he wanted someone observant.
Modest. . .pious. . . .
A good wife, the good wife.
Keeper of the home. . .
caretaker of his children.
Dutiful to him.
Pleasing to his eye.
A believer. . .
holding TRUE. . .
to The Creator. . . .
No!
Apparently, those attributes
incite a mundane woman
He loves you, yes.
He wants you in his life, indeed.
But my dear,
you
are the “home” woman.
He lives another life,
fastly, without you.
In his fast life he desires the complete opposite
A woman
who excites him
through her language, vulgar.
Who shows no fear to The Creator,
respect, to Him.
Garrulous.
Opionated.
Full of expression,
in the weirdest way.
Inappropriate.
Not afraid,
to cover in modesty one day.
Swing her curls openly
to the world the next.
Not afraid,
to step into a crowd of sinners.
Joining them.
Imitating them.
He. . .loves her
He. . . loves that,
in her.
Excitement.
She stands
on her own two feet.
Only needing his laughs,
his companionship,
his touch.
She is not. . .his burden.
he doesn’t have to take care of her
or her children.
His time with her is all fun.
All play.
No worries.
A get away from the reality.
Excitement.
With all the negatives.